Thoughts and feelings...

Well, new week...new me! I feel great- back to life as I know it (without work, of course.) And that's weird. You know being home in the summers are different than now. In the summer, I have the kids home and we are going to the pool each day and playing around the yard, etc. Being home now is different...both kids gone and a quiet house. On my "feel good" days, I can get a lot accomplished! Although sometimes I should be doing more household chores than I do! Today I have spent most of my morning on the phone with my insurance company! Boy...that sure is draining work! So I thought I had pretty good insurance- Cigna an HMO plan. But they sure are stingy with their money, I am coming to find out. Right now they have denied $13,000 in claims for one thing or another! I have 2 claims in appeal and one claim the doctor has to call to do a peer-to-peer review with the medical director of Cigna! I have found out that I have to "study" the Explanation of Benefits that comes in the mail- and I get about 2 or more each day it seems! I should get graduate credit for all the work and I time I put into this! Then I call the member services number- which I have now memorized- and push all the options until I finally reach a human voice. (I learned a trick- just act like you don't have a touchtone phone and keep saying "associate" and eventually, they'll put you through!) Then, most days I call, it seems like I know more about my plan than the representative on the other end! That is so frustrating sometimes, actually all the time! So, since I'm on a venting spree, let me tell you how much I hate wigs! You would think they would simplify your life, no...trust me, they don't! They are uncomfortable, itchy, hot, and I can't stand it. When the wind blows, I have pieces of hair standing every which way, and it doesn't feel like my hair! I am constantly fidgeting with it- getting stray stands out of my face and trying to flatten it more on my head. I have already gone back to the wig store for them to thin it out some. So I have come to the conclusion, the bandanna "Harley Davidson" look is more suitable for me! I have been wearing my wig out in public so I don't get the strange stares, but I think I'm over that now. So, now I may get some strange stares, but my head will feel good. I have even gotten a collection of different scarves and bandannas in a lot of different colors and styles- thanks to friends! Speaking of friends, I want to tell you about a special gift my school did for me. They made a handmade quilt with all of their hand prints for me to take to my chemo treatments! It is absolutely beautiful! You know when you get chemo, you get chilly. I have been using the white blankets- that they provide- to cover up with. Now I can come "armed" with a beautiful quilt that means so much to me! I will have the support of all of my friends from school right in my lap! How special is that? I've attached a picture so you can see it! I think I've probably written too much today, sorry. Sometimes it's just great therapy to get my feelings out on the keyboard, rather than to Greg! Thanks for visiting my blog! :)

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